in which Entitlement stealthily conquers.

i am pirating my neighbor's wireless internet. i know, it's immoral, unethical, and unsavory. at first i resisted, with clenched teeth and sweaty palms. but like artax, i cannot resist Swamps Of Sadness, also known as Invisible Seas Of Wireless. i turn my computer on and the little grey indicators tantalizingly light up to black to show that i have a strong connection. i cannot translate into words the strong magnetic strength of those little indicators on the taskbar. they are that strong.

i gave in. i cancelled my subpar dialup account, banking on the Consistency of Invisible Seas Of Wireless. i knew this was Risky, but i bathed myself in the fresh spring waters of Invisible Seas Of Wireless, rubbing its invisibly fast internet connection all over my keyboard. it was magical. i learned to let go, let love take over, not be so detached and awkward. i grew emotionally as an individual.

that's when the expectations crept in. they started small. i would feel just slightly miffed if Invisible Seas Of Wireless weren't there when i wanted to talk to it at four am. but these expectations, they have collectively become morbidly obese. this afternoon, during a 3 hour downloading binge, Invisible Seas Of Wireless had to step out for a minute. i cried real tears of disappointment and rejection.

i think we need some time apart, Invisible Seas Of Wireless. so we can learn to come together, to be mutually nurturing. i really think it's for the best. maybe we can make a time table together, to decide when it will be healthy to see each other again. maybe in our Time Off Period, we can work on a list of issues we'd like to address with each other. maybe we can depend on our respective friends to give us guidance and advice about how to Break The Cycle.

i really think our relationship is worth rising to this level of commitment. you?